This first post! Oh my it feels hard – not for reasons of emotion but because of my irritating perfectionist ways! So I just want to do a head twirl and say ‘blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa’ to get my mind flowing and to freely share all the deep grammar-typos stored in my heart.
Cool, i think that was liberating!
This is not my first blog, I started another one about 3 years ago and quickly suffered from self-imposed readership jitters. So this time I want to start out incognitoish to my immediate world but I do want to meet those walking this rather infertile road with me and I am also keen to translate my little scribble heart diary into blogland because the more passionate and emotional I get, the more scrawling my scribblings become. AND… I WANT TO REMEMBER… this most painful journey that has shaped my husband and I forever.I do long for a day when I forget some sharpness that this pain brings, but at the same time, I always want to be moved with empathy beyond myself to comfort others walking this same road. This road that has the potential to end in hopeless desperation, if walked alone. So this is me remembering… while I am still in the thick of it. Remembering too, the purpose in my pain. Eyes fixed on my One, True HOPE! How else?
And so I still say “Remember me LORD, as YOU did Hannah in 1 Samuel”